The Town I'm living in was wounded 16 years ago. It was raped, mutilated, and eventually died due to fatal wounds.
3 months of siege, and 6 months of most horrible war destroyed My Town totally.
Vukovar died in pain in November of 1991.
It was dead for a lot of years, and it's slowly resurrecting now.
I didn't think it will, I must admit.
I've spent my most important years, years from 10-19 in Novi Sad. I usually say I grew up there.
As a kid I couldn't understand all that shooting, bombing, running to the basement at night.
When my family left just before the siege, but after many fights we survived through, we watched everything on TV, and it seemed so unreal.
We saw destroyed buildings that we cared for, we saw bodies on the streets, blood, we heard about lot of people getting killed. Friends. Family. People we never knew.
I think it wasn't really real for me 'til I was 12-13.
Then I started realizing that the place of birth, and childhood doesn't exist anymore. It was painful and I never made peace with that.
It's hard even now, to see how it's destroyed. To hear stories of people that lived through all of that, and saw everything no one ever hopes to see.
I still don't know why it all happened. And I'm not talking about politics now.
I know that God gave us free will, to live or die, sin or refrain from sinning, let live or kill.
I especially don't understand that part;
Why did He give us free will to do that?
It's a small town(50000 citizens then, 35000 now) for those who have never been here, but it was really good for living, and I hope it will be again someday.
I don't know when... but I hope it will be soon.
Hurt doesn't just go away easily, but I hope that God will give us strength to rise up.
Here are few wise words from the Boss
“Now with these hands
I pray lord
With these hands
For the strength Lord
With these hands
For the faith Lord
With these hands
I pray Lord
With these hands
For the strength Lord
With these hands
For the faith Lord
With these hands...“
22 comments:
AMEN
Thanks for writing this, Drej. It's good to hear some of your story. I would like to hear more.
meni nije zao sto si bio u novom sadu. Doduse, bio si malo depsresivan i mracan :-)
Tada to nisam razumeo. Ni sada ja to nemogu razumeti. Drugo je to kada dozivis to. Poneko ovde kritikuje hrvate sto se vracaju na rat. A kazem da bi i mi kada bi se ratovalo , rusilo na nasoj teritoriji.
Pa i mi stalno spominjemo bombardovanje.
traume, traume... ako bih htio citirati naseg dragog Taubera, trebamo se vracati i suociti se snjima da bismo ih obradili...
:)
Lazo
Ni meni nije zao sto sam bio u Novom Sadu,nisam to ni pomislio.Ali zao mi je sto je razlog bio takav.
btw, promenio si se. Na bolje, pozitivno. Ljubav cini cuda :) . A sve te stavri samo su te napravile bolji i jacim covekom, cim nisi poludeo.
Jadan jos samo da mu ni srce ne otkaze, prezivi Opression pa, jos tko zna sta sve moze biti...
Maybe Einstien,
Maybe baby... :)
I love your town. I can't wait to get back to it.
All of you are welcome anytime!
Johnny boy ,my teacher, I would like to see you too here. ?
And Chris, you wouldn't believe the concert Milica and me attended last night.
There was a Bluegrass concert on the main square!
You can't see something like that very often here.
Violin, sorry, fiddle, was just amazing! It was really good!
And they played "Jambalaya" as a tribute to Hank Williams, and also they played some Bela Fleck instrumentals with fiddle and banjo!It was really great!Wish all of you could be here
ma ima taj srce ko Rusija
A o srcu bih citirao velikog bosansko-hrvatskog filozofa Edu Majku
"Przi se srce moje,od ljubavi tvojeee,drugi nam srecu kroje, tuzni smo obojeeee".
Mislim da je ovo bolje od Einsteina, Moody-a, Levey-a i Homera(Simpsona).
O vidim da ste vi online.To je zanimljivo.Pricajte mi...
I did not want to emphasise that they played Blea Fleck tunes with banjos and fiddles, cause that is how they are meant to be played i just wanted to say that it was great.And I now I feel stupid :(
well, it is possiblle. Soon, Maybe next month. You agree? We could play on square also, some blues country. And I could drink beer as much I like, noone knows me there, execpt you, but you know me too well to pretend.
After that we can play in church :-)
And after church concert we go to celebrate.
I can show you some my new songs.
How much I need to pay you for advertising myself ? :-)
a kako ti vidis da smo na liniji?
zar nisi ti na poslu?
Yes, I would really like that, I don't know about the square...but it would be really great to play with you here. And about drinking...you can drink only if can too :0)And I agree,come anytime
jesam.hihi.pa vidim po vremenu kad je
komentar objavljen
a trebao sam reci da imam parapsiholoske moci.spor mozak sta ces
pisacu na mail o dolasku.
Cao , ja odo raditi
BTW you are not 25 anymore... stop lieing about your age on the front page...
:)
Lazo
you see now you are 26 and I am only 29...at least for few more weeks only 3 years difference.
I find my truth being truthful.
Not changin anythin'
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